2025

 I guess the turn of the new year, my poor memory, and my appreciation of a good love story have me up too late missing my kids and feeling the deeper feelings possible from watching How I Met Your Mother. Again. I love the friendships, the struggles, the mistakes, and the weaving of one of the best love stories on tv. Rewatching the season showed me things I forgot. A real mess of a dude with enough dishonest moves that I couldn't remember why I ever thought so much of this series. But alas the seasons progress and the last season shows two people passing each other over the years, living their lives and purifying their individual friendships. Then they do flash forwards and flashbacks and reveal such a good and timely meeting of two hearts that had to wade through a lot of crap and growth to be ready for each other. 

Love looks nice. It looks good on a few people I know. I would like to experience it one day on this earth in a healthy, worthwhile marriage partnership that is more like the rare friendships I have found that stand the test of time and change. Friendships that last over time are the best kind of love I know thus far amongst adults. Loving children is easy. Loving family is worth it. Loving men thus far has been a misguided mistake of an unhealthy heart. But the struggles lead to health, to understanding of self, to the unexpected gifts of beautiful children, finding true friendships, and seeing poor imitations of friendships as selfishness overtakes even the best of us sometimes. 

2025 can be what all the other years have been. A year leading to more years of learning and growth, mistakes and repairs, memories and laughter and tears. Lots of tired but a twinkle at the end of the week because there is a method to the madness. Live in it, live through it, rise above it, and see what happens next because so much of it is good when you surround yourself with the right people. 

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