Walk like a llama

I like llamas. I like how they walk. I like their dedication to goal, their sideways gazelle hops when snarked at only to snake right back to the goal with ears up, their fine sense of boundaries, their incredible value as a llama that exists despite narrow-minded llama slurs one might hear. 

I am a divorced mom of two treasured beings. I am a Christian in a society where that can mean anything and tells you very little. I no longer own a llama but as I wrote that first paragraph I saw my Applejacks in my mind that first evening I let her eat hay in the pen with the pony. I watched her for a very long time with a doofy smile on my face. The smile started as one of pure entertainment but as the minutes ticked by I moved to a landingpad of pure admiration and wonder. Long before men and marriage and veterinary medicine and kids took me on unexpected difficult journeys I saw the dignified lady I planned to be on the other side. 

This blog will contain tidbits of my story or just my day as my after 11 pm brain seeks processing and personal entertainment when time allows. I'm back on the blog. 

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